So much vanity. 😉
That’s a long winded way of saying that this entry won’t win any awards. I’ve been down in Portland for over a week, taking a break from the boat. The truth is that four months of non-stop voyaging scratched my itch. My fun-meter is pegged. It’s wonderful to step away from the constant vigilance. It’s wonderful to catch up with old friends and family. It’s wonderful that at 33 I can still go home and get pampered by my parents for a weekend. I needed a break from the boat, and I suppose I needed a break from blogging.I was supposed to start my unicorn-ish, telecommuting job last Monday. For three weeks it had been nothing but thumbs-up and warm, fuzzy feelings. The day I was supposed to start I woke up to an email: “Sorry, we’ve decided to go with someone else.”
WTF!? …so, no job. Back to the drawing board.
And here I am, stuck in a potentially hypocritical situation. If I chose to believe that synchronicity led me to this job, I have to believe it played a role in getting the rug pulled out from under me. But I choose again to believe in the invisible thread. I doubled down this week by completely redesigning my professional website, using new libraries and frameworks that I’ve been teaching myself. I was so close to actualizing my dream job. I want it more than ever now!
But my batteries are charged. My fun-meter has receded a bit. I can hear the gentle lapping of waves in my mind and the invisible thread is pulling me back to Solace.