Freedom and Angst

Sailing with Brother

Jean Paul Sarte, the father of existential philosophy, was fond of pointing out that true freedom is experienced as angst. The example he gives is that of standing on the precipice of a cliff. The angst is what you feel, knowing that you have the freedom to take that last step. Freedom is scary. So much so that most people can’t handle it. They’d rather sacrifice freedom for security. I feel that angst every time I dock. I know my little $10K boat could do…

Cutting the Dock Lines

Solace

I finally did it! I cut the dock lines. The sendoff party last night was small and intimate, just the way I wanted it. We had a propane fireplace on the dock and poured everyone a glass of my homemade blueberry wine. The weather cooperated by clearing up and calming down from the steady drizzle and gusty winds we’ve been having the last few days. March is hanging on with an iron death grip. The forecast for the week was for unpredictable, gusty winds that…

Final Preparations

Less than a week till I cut the dock lines!!! I’m not sure how that makes me feel. There is a strong sense of confidence based on my years of preparation for this trip. That confidence has only increased due to the recent upgrades to the boat. That feeling is tinged with a bit of itchy feet to go use all my new toys and books I’ve brought aboard. At the same time though, I have no doubt that I will miss my friends and…

Man Overboard!

Stairing at Death

I came face to face with death. I broke the one rule that sailors must not break: I fell overboard. As I splashed into the water, death embraced me in his cold arms. He caressed my body with his cold, clammy hands, covering it with salty sea foam before pinching my ass and letting me go. As I struggled to pull myself into the dingy, wet and exhausted, I swear I could hear a whisper: “Don’t come back”. Two days later, I’m still reeling from…

Upgrades

Ice Box Separator

Boat work is moving at warp speed. On the one hand, I have a short list of low-priority projects that I thought I had two months to complete and now need to be done as soon as possible. On the other hand I’m doing a weeks worth of projects every two days, now that I can devote myself to them full time. Icebox I spent a good deal of time this winter pondering the problem of refrigeration on board the boat. I’m not opposed to…

Setting Sail

Wow… I don’t really know where to start or how to capture the last week, but I feel like I better make an attempt in order to put future posts into context. I was scheduled to leave my job in May to begin cruising. Progress toward that goal was developing well in every way. The cruising kitty is full and the boat is ready to go. I had a lot of vacation to burn off before my departure date, so I scheduled that Friday and…

The Story of Meaning

Mushrooms on a Stump

Once I get underway on my trip this summer, I’ll lose touch with the mentality I am exposed to at the workplace. I’ve been trying hard to understand the difference between myself and other cubical dwellers. What mental lenses am I losing …or gaining? How can I help others to break out the cube? The dominant paradigm is a story of scarcity, competition, and dominance. I want to live a different way. I want to inspire others to do the same. Foraging, cruising, living off…

How To Fiberglass a Mounting Block

Fiberglass Repair

This is an excerpt of a rough draft of a book I’m thinking about writing this summer. I hope this simple and useful guide inspires you to dip your toe into the wonderful waters of fiberglass work. As you restore and modify a boat, you’ll eventually need a mounting block. This may be a support for a shelf or something to screw into in order to hang something. You should never screw through the hull of your boat, even if you’re sure the fiberglass is…

How Did I Get Here?

Friends on a boat

My life is changing so drastically now. I’m losing touch with the average person, and yet, I started as a collared-shirt wearing, cubical dwelling, middle class, paper pushing loan drone and wage slave. This journey of a thousand small steps has not taken me far yet, physically. But it has changed my life drastically. In three months I’ll be living almost totally off-the-grid in my sailboat. I’m about to float around, wherever the wind takes me, but generally pointed north. I’ll be relying on my…

Cornet Bay, Deception Pass

Solace at Rosario Head

Today was one of those rare days where not one single second of it sucked. The entire day was a conveyor belt of fun and engagement. I started off this Saturday morning by waking without an alarm clock. A friend and I were going to head inside Deception Pass, but I wasn’t sure which island I wanted to end up on. I laid in bed and considered my anchorage options for that evening. Hope Island was a favorite, but the off-season is a great time…

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